Dark Blue | amanda516's Blog

We had plans. You were my best friend. You were my brother. You were supposed to give me away at my wedding. You were supposed to be the godfather to my child(ren). We were supposed to grow older and hang out sipping drinks by the pool while our kids played together. You promised a whole life with you.

It's been almost 2 years and 1 month since you have passed.

I met the reverend that is going to marry us today. She is wonderful and everything is going to be beautiful, and instead of enjoying that i am so sadden by the fact you are going to miss it all.

Anytime something happens that turns my world into an array of colors, into happiness, it is slashed with the deepest darkest blue, and i know it'll never end.

how do i get through this very special day without you? How do i let the happiness in? How can i, for one day, push aside the mourning?

help me